I've been struggling to write the past few days and weeks. I get nervous, like whatever I write isn't going to be good enough. But like I told my wife, there is no such thing as good enough. Everyone's "enough" is different, so there is really no point in trying to compare anything. We are living in a time of comparison, with the newest and shiniest material goods. To be sure this isn't entirely new. As consumption has grown over the centuries, so has the access to more and more goods by more and more people. It breeds competition not just for those resources, but also within ourselves in the form of competition.
I'm not bashing competition. It's a wonderful thing that teaches team-work, fortitude, and strategy. It's how people like James Garfield rose from the depth of poverty to become the President of the United States. But there is also some unhealthy aspects of today's competition. Kids barely into high school stress about their activities and extra-curricular achievements in order to get into the best colleges, often without realizing they will be saddled with enormous debt once they are finished. Competition also creates the "keeping up with the Jones" attitude which breeds contempt and jealousy. I don't want to be a part of all that. So instead, I'll just write.
Writing this blog was my wife's idea. I don't usually keep a journal or other daily writing activity. I usually just wrote something when the inspiration hit. But that's not a routine and it does not practice the muscle as much as I'd like. So I will write this blog as a daily exercise. Not everything will be poignant, but it will be an honest account of what I'm doing or feeling. I hope it's entertaining to those who might read it, and maybe even a little educational.
But the one thing I absolutely don't care if it is or not, is enough.